mostly my nostalgic and frequently puerile reflections on old movies, music and whatever pops from the recesses of memory....i have detailed memory of the oddest and more insignificant details.......these memories codify and indelibly emboss the past into my portrait of the future.......and a bit queer, to boot!
the gowns/costumes in all the SAG and GOLDEN GLOBES, EMMYS, and the ACADEMY AWARDS SHOWS keep Fashion Trendiness on a linear path of Surrealistic Over-The-Topness......Perpetuated, with some humor...well, a lot of humor.......on RU PAUL'S DRAG RACE and PROJECT RUNWAY......
In a philosophical mood, this morning.....I thought of this film, that I'd not seen in many decades.....The internal dialogue of Matilda "Tillie" Hunsdorfer reminding me of my own childhood, immersed in a Gilbert Chemistry Set, a terrarium that represented...to me...a microcosm for the Universe, and meditations on a world that I fantasized, existed beneath a huge boulder in our back yard, where the Akashic Records existed within small chrome-like spheres that could be played in a device that had been left there by aliens, a billion years before........
this led to 'sessions' with a shrink...and a battery of tests to evaluate my sanity......The Psychiatrist determined that I was merely an artist, with a vivid imagination and who was squarely in the center of the Masculinity/Femininity continuum.........I was relieved to be released from others' constructs and prejudices about what and whom we/I should be........Nothing is forgotten.......Everything is remembered, if only for the amount of time it takes for light to pass over a hydrogen molecule.
pragmatic sensualist, motivated by really deep instincts, actualized by willful imaginings and perpetuated by other's desires. Abstract, yet clear in purpose, honest, but abstruse, my moods change like winds and water with my confidences, and when ungrounded, i am both guarded and vulnerable, leaning, in darkness, to the Light, nurtured by instinctual feelings arising from a deep gene pool.
